Sometimes you need to close your eyes. I am doing this right now while typing up this post. It is a peaceful thing, and leads to you going into a different headspace. Sometimes our eyes are open for too much of the day. It isn’t healthy.
Try this and see if it leads to you thinking differently. Maybe you can try typing up a letter to yourself with your eyes closed. It is less full of distraction, and makes you feel like it is just you and your thoughts.
Where are you going to go in this world? Do you follow your passions or what moves you, or do you just do things you half want to do, uncertain about if they were worth your while. We don’t have a choice on all of these things, but maybe we do. Maybe we have a choice on some things that matter. Maybe most people don’t give themselves the power to make these decisions.
When you are by yourself, close your eyes and think about the person you are. Think about how the day was passing you. See if you can’t handle closing your eyes because you feel like you have to check something. Maybe you don’t need to check that thing. Maybe that thing is causing you to feel fulfilled only when you check it, but it is a hollow fulfillment. The world is less structured than you think. Maybe you could exit the structure in some ways and see it for the open environment that it is.
There is a part of the brain called the nucleus accumbens that waits on a stimulus from the outside like it is the most important thing that will show up. Don’t be stuck satisfying that fleeting “joy”. Look to something larger.
Sometimes you can’t see when your eyes are open, because of all the distraction around you.